Tynan and Sandy fooled around on the weekend when I went home. He told me a couple nights ago but I felt that something was up when I got back. I really feel hurt and I know I probably shouldnt be and dont have the right to. Though, I was with him almost all of first semester and he told me he wanted to be with me, for fucks sake he told me he loved me... and then this semester starts and then he tells me he wants to take a break because he was too stressed. I guess I see what he was really getting at. It just really hurts. I hate seeing her in there, taking my place. Part of me wants to scream at her, especially since she's kind of turning into a "Shannon". Having fooled around with 3 different guys in a span of 4 days. She's also been hitting on Peter, apparently. Peter can hold his own though, but she corrupted my Tynan. It's odd, he treats me very differently now and I can tell I'm barely a part of his focus or life anymore. I feel forgotten. And I dont mean to be a bitch, but he even told me she's nothing compared to me, so why the massive step down?
I guess it doesn't really matter. I know he's not the one for me in the long run anyway. Plus, I am in love with Matt, but he's leaving and I'm lonely and I guess this just magnifies it. However, spring break I get to go see Cody, Chris, and Shane, and all those boys that make me feel like maybe I am something special. Sometimes it's so hard being up here.