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I feel emotional all of a sudden.

I just realized that I am 30 minutes away from registering for the last time. I still have so many classes that I would absolutely love to take, and clearly won't be able to. I don't want school to be over. I don't want to graduate. I know it's cliche, but it went by too quickly. Part of me is heartbroken.

Still, I'm conflicted. As well as wishing to throw on the brakes, part of me is calm and feels ready. My capstone course is back on the schedule, as if just for me. And while I still have a few more required classes to get out of the way, looking over my journalism track, I have accomplished everything I set out to do. Granted, there are still some loose ends and things to tie up, but I'm so close to being done. I'm comforted by the fact that I dove into my Undergrad career seeking journalism, and that I still love it (although it does drive me bonkers sometimes). I'm going to be fine, and I'm going to like whatever job I get.

I just feel the future is rushing at me like a freight train. I don't know what's going to happen. I'm not really afraid, it's just kind of bittersweet. I wish I could hit pause.

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sarahmarie054
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:38 pm (UTC)
You and I are in a similar position. I really want to continue school after May, because I love learning. I just hate all the homework that goes along with it.

It's a bittersweet feeling.
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:41 pm (UTC)
Hah, I totally just got done editing the word bittersweet into there. You = genius.

I know exactly how you feel. Also, there are some crazy, off-the-wall classes (i.e. ballroom dancing, reiki healing) that I really really want to take... but they conflict with the classes I need and :(.
sarahmarie054
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:49 pm (UTC)
Bittersweet is a pretty awesome word. I use it frequently!

That's the thing about college, though, is that you're supposed to try things you would never normally try. Can you just take one or two classes next year, or something like that? You know, of the ones you want to take?
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:57 pm (UTC)
Like, audit? I was thinking about it... but I don't know if I'll be staying here after I graduate. I might be moving.
sarahmarie054
Nov. 7th, 2006 05:01 pm (UTC)
Well whatever you end up doing, I hope that you get to take some wacky classes eventually!
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 11:04 pm (UTC)
Me too! I want to take Reiki healing and Ballroom Dancing and Philosphy of Science Fiction Literature! *flails*
mattador
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:46 pm (UTC)
Wow. I totally didn't realize it before your post, but I'm in the same boat.
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:53 pm (UTC)
*hug*
mattador
Nov. 7th, 2006 04:21 pm (UTC)
zomg paperwork/bureaucracy
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 11:06 pm (UTC)
No shit! Speaking of bureaucracy! They moved my registratoin time to the 9th at 2:30... so I literally had to watch as my capstone began filling up. :( There are still 17 seats, but at a school this big I'm worried.
mattador
Nov. 8th, 2006 03:58 am (UTC)
The online degree audit says I haven't completed my degree reqs. The course catalog says I have. And the registrar's office refuses to doublecheck until January.
virtuistic
Nov. 8th, 2006 01:10 pm (UTC)
What the hell?! Those bastards! Do they not realize that YOU are paying THEM and that you need them to do their damn jobs before you register for the last time?

If I were you, I would raise hell.
mattador
Nov. 8th, 2006 01:51 pm (UTC)
I just intend to get as many people as possible on the record saying "you've got your requirements met" so that, if it turns out I don't, I can threaten to su. I am not a litigious guy, but this is ridiculous.
notashamed
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:51 pm (UTC)
I know the feeling. I had a full-tilt breakdown the summer after I graduated from college. Granted, that was mainly b/c I had/have SERIOUS issues and they decided to manifest at that time, but still--it was tough.

But dun be skeerd. Just think: NO MORE HOMEWORK.
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 02:54 pm (UTC)
I honestly don't think I can wrap my mind around that. Especially since journalism kind of is a continuation of homework. One word: freelance.

;) Maybe I should just go to grad school (yeah right.)
kathleendoris
Nov. 7th, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
well, the thing about college is that as long as you give them money they'll let you take classes from them. so you can take the courses in the summer or next fall.

grad school? it's for you, maybe?
virtuistic
Nov. 7th, 2006 10:57 pm (UTC)
Grad school isn't really for me. As a journalist, there's kind of no point. There's only so much theory.
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