this is what i think.
And i'm so stupid because i still got jon something and fuck me if i didnt hear Be Like That on the radio last night for the first time since ian and i broke up. Not something i was preparted to handle. I balled for over two hours. Chris was a dick to me, i dont think it's really his fault though cuz i dont think he really knew how bad of a mood i was in and i think he's kind of oblivious to how harsh he can be sometimes. then again...what boy isnt?
I need a hug.
i dont know, i'm so demented. i was pissed yesterday anyway cuz mrs. apold required us to wear some form of red and i had the best black outfit planned out. black... tis tradition with me cuz i'm such a bitter, bitchy humbug. Then i had to do a singing valentine over in deerfield and i saw jon and i gave him a little valentine in front of all of his friends and i dont know if the way he reacted was because he was shocked to see me there or if it was because he lives a double life. Friend life and then Band and everything else life. I really hope that isnt the case. i hope he checks his bloody e-mail.
Fuck You St. Valentine, You Bastard.
now i'm gonna go back to playing computer games. cuz i'm fuckin lame.