March 29th, 2003

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it's 2 am... do you know where your kids are?

Again, I am ashamed to be American....

58 civilians killed when market was targeted.

15 killed the night before, 92 wounded.

14 killed Wednesday.

500 of iraqi troops killed on Tuesday.

total = 587

Can't we all just get along? Is it so hard to not be violent? See, I get angry, I listen to this song, its vulgar, it's crude, it says "fuck" over 97 times, and it helps me vent. Someday... I'll set the world on fire.

Anyhow...on a less political and significant note....however more pleasant in tone... although today i fear i may have been ditched by cody... at this moment i smell like matt. We went shopping together, it was hilarious. We got our t-shirts and our paper for printing... then we went back to his house... sat online together for awhile... tried to get the software to work. didn't... so jenn came over and we went to shane's... then back to matt's and watched the Virgin Suicides. Excellent movie. Tomorrow we're supposed to watch Run, Lola Run... and a couple others. Matt has it all planned. I'm cool with it. I hope my parents don't go ape shit and throw a wrench in it. But i'll sleep tonight.
  • Current Music
    Fuck The World - ICP
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wish i could waste my time without wasting all your time

Thursday morning I snuck out and oh man... with the speeding ticket and the drug dogs and me having to stash the hitter and weed inside my bra because otherwise shane would have been arrested... Oh yeah. Good times. Yeah, I figured out that Cody didn't ditch me, which brings me a copious amount of joy. however I'm a little concerned that matt may tonight, but he's got to patch things up with shane, cuz shane is being a drama queen. I wish hanna would go back to honduras or wherever she was last summer. It'd be a lot easier.
  • Current Music
    Keasby Nights - Catch 22
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I told myself...

You know what I really hate? When people lie and lead me on. Sneaky people that tell you one thing but go do another. Oh yeah, I still have feelings for you, I love you, I am just afraid of my feelings because I dont want to screw anything up. Bullshit, it's all bullshit. Why do I waste my time on these people and their dramas? Shane is like, mad at matt cuz like, he thinks that hanna is like, flirting with matt more cuz like, she wouuld like rather be with matt and like, matt flirts back like. This is all so fucking highschool. And Matt, do I even want to start with him? How stupid was I to ever pity the damn kid? "Oh, I hate Darcy, I wish that stupid whore would just leave me alone." Hence the reason she's over at his house now with her friend linds, trying to hook matt up with linds. not to mention that this is the time when I'm supposed to be over there watching Run, Lola Run. Perhaps me being angry is childish too but I feel completely mislead. Then again I should have seen it coming, what with homecoming, the play, the darcy vs me drama, the park, everything! I hate these fucking games. Another day, one of the last of my spring break wasted, waiting for stupid fucking people that will just inevitably screw me over. Why do I even bother anymore?

A vase of wilted flowers, for those who lost their powers.
No use in treading water
When there's no air to breathe in

Help me find a way to move on
Standing in the way of the sun
Help me find you, you, you
Help you find me.

Now who inspires you?

The modes are so abbraisive
The sound is too persuasive
Could all the other's gone stray?
Shall we go on one last date?

Help me find a way to move on
Standing in the way of the sun
Help me find you, you, you.
Help you find me.

Who inspires you? [5x]

I'm sorry to inform you
Sometimes love can deform you

No time for hesitating
The rifle's cocked and waiting.
Cocked and waiting
aimed at me.

Help me find a way to move on.
Standing in the way of the sun
Help me find you, you, you.
Help you find me.

Now who inspires you?
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    Inspire - Cave In