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I will go down with this ship...

What. a. day.

Well, got a lot of supplies from Sam's for college. If we run out of snacks within a month then I think we deserve a medal. Although, I reckon that with the writing center we may have more traffic. *shrug* I'm still really excited about that, by the way.

So, it's obvious that when I'm upset or hurt I actually do work. That being said, the article is finished. I edited it twice, and as far as the guidelines and information I was given it is flawless. Four days in advance.

Matt. Yes. It all comes down to Matt. So, for the second night he decides he doesn't want to hang out with me. Last night it was cool, not even I wanted to go see those movies. Either way, yes I had fun there. He wouldn't have. I could accept that. Tonight, I can't accept. Starts at 10:00 this morning, he calls and says we should do something. I get back from Sam's and I give him a call, he says we should go to the library... tells me he'll be here in 15 minutes. Doesn't show. I call back... finally get ahold of him a couple hours later and find out, "complications arose". He's with his mom and Travis... I suppose I can understand that if his Mom is involved... but it's pushing it. He tells me to get a car and call him back. I do. He doesn't answer. Another couple of hours and an article later, some girl picks up his cell phone when I call, ask who I am... I tell her and she hands the phone to Matt telling him that it's me... and he hangs up. After everything, my tolerance, my time spent going to pick up his CDS from Strictly Discs, ordering his shit on e-bay, calling him when he's in the AF to try to help him as much as I can, being his fucking chauffeur when home... I feel duped. Used. Worthless. Ditched, royally. In a word, backstabbed. I've put up with a lot of shit, but this time I'm getting an apology. God knows I am owed at least that.

... To say that everything I knew was just a lie. Another hope, a dream, well what was it to you?


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Aug. 27th, 2004 10:40 pm (UTC)
Oh WHAT? So like he was WITH with the other girl? Might be time to tell someone to bugger off for real, man. Take anything I say with a bagful of salt because I'm not you and I'm not him and I don't know either of you in person so I won't know all the details but it seems like you put up with a LOT of shit from this dude. Even though you guys aren't really TOGETHER (that's the deal isn't it?) even friends don't fuck friends over like this.
Well I'm kinda an aggro person so like I said think before you take any advice I give you but also respect yourself you're a fucking decent person and don't deserve this kinda fucking bullshit.

Or you can do what I've done a variation of when this shit happens and make tactful promises to him and say you'll pick him up for something important he wants to do and flake at the last minute and then send him a dodgy message saying "Oh a guy came over I haven't seen in a while sorry if you need me we'll be at hotel (insert name)" and then turn your phone off until you feel better. LOL I'm evil.

- cal
Aug. 28th, 2004 08:50 am (UTC)
Hah. yeah, revenge seems appealing and in the past it's worked... I ruined his 200 dollar leather jacket once and am currently holding quite a few of his posessions hostage. However, I'm not a vengeful person.

I don't know if he was "with" with the girl. He was with a group of people, there was a lot of talking and stuff but still, she told him my name and the next thing I know... the phone is dead. Yes, I am very, very angry.

I plan to let him know that the next time I talk to him as well. Because you're exactly right, even at the bare minimum, friends don't fucking do that to friends.
Aug. 29th, 2004 06:33 am (UTC)
Well I hope shit works out you deserve better. Know that.

- cal
Aug. 29th, 2004 07:17 am (UTC)
I know.

Deserve or not...
I just want him.
Aug. 29th, 2004 07:52 am (UTC)
Yeah I went through that with Mel, you know what I did? I took it on the chin and dumped her. It hurt. It hurt for ages. I'm getting better now but if I was still with her I can tell you I'd be feeling a lot better

"Why did she try to make me look like a dick infront of my friends again?"
"Will she call today?"
"I wonder why she won't want to hang out this weekend"


Fuck it.

It's a real tough thing to do, I don't think you have to give him up or anything, just be really assertive, put him out, he'll come back to you but then it'll be on YOUR terms and he'll have realised how much you mean.

I dunno. Wish I could actually help instead of typing words in this comment box. I'm kinda useless really haha.

- cal
Aug. 29th, 2004 03:30 pm (UTC)
no, your advice has helped me. I thank you for it.

I'm just doubting that I'm ever gonna hear from him again.
Aug. 29th, 2004 04:57 pm (UTC)
I just have to say that I was there for the jacket episode, and he deserved that. I also thought it was quite funny, although i turned bitch to you a little while later, and i'll always be sorry for that.
Aug. 29th, 2004 05:05 pm (UTC)
Hey, it's cool. You know there are no hard feelings.

Although, I probably should have with-held the CD today... use it to probe answers out of the fucker or at least a formal apology.
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