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you can be art when we melt.

Ugh. So frustrated lately. Self-alteration of moods temporarily malfunctioning. I really, and I mean really, hate this town. I also really dislike it when people ask me why I don't just leave... because currently, I can't. I need my parents to help pay for college, I need money to pay for college, and if I didn't have to go to college to do what I want to do then I wouldn't but unfortunately I do need to go to college to do what I want to do so quess what isn't an option. So, if I just do my time, suck it up, I'll get to where I want to be 10 times faster than leaving and trying to build a life in some strange district. I'm just doing what I have to do... it's that simple. Once again, for clarification only, no, I don't enjoy it.

I'm concerned. I haven't really talked to Matt since the... "thing". I feel stupid, because I think I may have over-reacted but I'm not going to be ashamed about how I felt. It hurt. That's that. However, I dont want to lose everything because of it, either. Granted, I don't think everything will crumble because we've been friends for too long and been through much more than that, but I really dont want there to be any hesitation or anxiety about future interactions. It's fine, I'm fine, time to return to normal and then progress into amelioration. He'll be home in less than two weeks... While I don't want to part with the music he purchased through me, I'm looking forward to seeing him. I hope Harry Potter is still in some theater around here. Or maybe I can get it from Tynan or something. Speaking of Harry Potter I should totally start writing that article for the paper. God, I'm a slacker.


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Aug. 1st, 2004 08:49 pm (UTC)
"Thing"? I missed it. Sorry if you've needed to talk to me and I've not been on. I've got the sheet with your number on it somewhere and I'll give you a call this week.

I loff you, and so does Harry.
Aug. 2nd, 2004 08:23 am (UTC)
Yeah. It's a stupid story. I think it might be all better now, but I'll tell you anyway if you wish. =]

I'd be delighted to hear from you. Just not today whilst I'm at work, mmk?

Oh... and you know the article I referenced...yeah. still not done and I have to be to work - when it's due - in like... an hour.
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