This song makes me think of Matt... I want to cuddle him, smell him, kiss him... no doubt probably also comfort him. Thank god basic is almost over, it must be hell. Shane told me he would let me read the letter that Matt wrote him... I called his mother, which makes me a dork... but I feel better after talking to her. She assured me he wasn't avoiding me, which was the exact thing I was afraid of. He'd tell me he loves me before he leaves so I'll rest easy, and then disappear and hope that I just forget. I can't forget. The same way Shane can't forget how much he loves Hanna, even if it hurts sometimes. He and I might as well be twins, minus the criminal record. Hardy Har har.
I hate being the bearer of bad news as well. Let that just be said... but Annie I love you, and I'm always here.
So in light of the song Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps by Cake and my conclusion that if I dont ask Jack to at least hang out, it'll never happen anyway so I really dont have anything to lose... I am going to ask him if he wants to chill sometime... just keep it simple, straightforward, not intimidating. And if he says no, then I'm no worse off than I am now... and then I can really hate him for being a dipshit, because lord knows, I am the coolest person, EVER.